For most of my life, I have told myself “I can’t have THAT! It is so ……” Even when I am not actively dieting, my eating behavior revolved around dieting practices. That constant guilt that I am bad if I eat that. I felt hungry all the time and I am sure it did not help that I totally obsessed about what I would eat next. Lunch at noon, even if I was not hungry. Fat free everything though your body needs fat. It was never ending.
Those days are over. I have had it.
I have started Phase 1 of eating intuitively. This involves:
Eating when hungry.
- No more rules. If I am hungry and I want fried clam, I will have them. What? Doesn’t this go against everything you have been taught? No because look where I am on what I thought I was right. I am back to where I started.
- Paying attention to my stomach.
Getting ride of the diet mentality.
- No more counting points. No more saying no mayonnaise or only eating low fat ice cream.
- No more guilt.
Ditching the scale
- I have been mostly doing this but I learned that I can refuse to be weighed in at the doctors. This is huge. That number haunts me because even if I do not look, they give me a print out with it taunting me.
Now when those thoughts of dieting will not be easy to get rid of. I have been dieting for most of my life. I have been listening to my body for the last two days and for the most part, I have been eating when hungry though sometimes, especially at work, I can’t eat until I am starving. Still it is progress. For the next few days I am going to eat until I am satisfied and when I am hungry. It has not been easy but it has been eye opening.