Music is a good gage of what I am feeling at the moment. Tonight, on my walk, I heard this song:
It kind of fit what I have been feeling lately. Loveless. I am not sure what has gotten into me lately. I just feel incredibly lonely. Maybe it is the spring air here in Boston or the fact I see people out and about holding hands or that I don’t seem to be wanted but I feel pretty hopeless in the love category. That is the one area of my life I am truly and utterly dissatisfied with.
Sometimes I think that I should have gotten married when I had the chance but then again, I would be in the same place right now either way, most likely.
I went to see Mom’s grave yesterday. My father’s parents are also at the National Cemetery in Bourne. I took Dad with me and we spent a little time at each grave. Dad’s way of grieving is different than my way so I tried to accommodate him as I best I could. I will go back again by myself so I can spend more time down there.
How was everyone’s weekend?